Friday, September 24, 2010

Love me, but with care

If you love me,
Buy me gifts of jazz, indie and rock music;
Not roses and cards.
[Though chocolates are allowed]

If you love me,
Don't dare laugh at my thoughts, dreams, plans.
Just point out when I go stray,
You don't need to drag me away.

If you love me,
(for real)
Say you like me-
Don't add more than that.

If you love me,
Know that I hate when you try keeping tabs on me.

If you love me,
Be ok when I cut your call short
To be with friends.
They're like my own blood, skin, life.
You came along just now.

If you love me,
Know that silence says lots more;

If you love me,
You might take one step towards me,
But find that I took one step away from-

If you love me,
Treat me right.

Smile when I'm in a funk,
An understanding nod when you know I'm repenting,
Holding my hand and not my wrist,
Surprise me with that innate goodness only you have,
A single ticket for me to have my share of
cups of coffee,
and jazz-

If you love me,
Know that saying life without me is torment,
Is the best way
To make me try to cut loose.
When you insist it's true,
Know that I'm planning escape routes in my head already.

Know that to love me,
Means to let me be,
To let me breathe.

            And I'll love you the way I can,
            Without saying so,
            Like this-
            Through poetry,
            Or a good deed,
            Or a sudden hug,
            Or in the many other little things I do for you.
I'll love you as only I can,
I'll love you with a silent fire.

*image courtesy- Rockstar Diaries

PS- i know i've been away for ages. AGES! but was suffering from a multiple pronged case of pending assignments at college, procrastination + the notorious blogger's block. hoping to make a comeback with this post!


magiceye said...

a wonderful comeback post!

Vee said...

good that you broke your bloggers block! and that's a wonderful comeback.

I'll try 2 be truthful said...

hmmm whos the lucky guy?

Anonymous said...

so much of conditions!!!!.....hope a boy who understands these exists.....
nice one...

J said...

Beautiful beautiful poem. Will come back to leave a more detailed comment.

Mohua said...

Statutory Warning: Hey, if u keep on making such powerful comebacks each time, i'll stop missing your absences altogether. (lol)
On a serious note, really liked your post. You have articulated such varied emotions which, at some or the other, i have personally experienced but since i lacked your style of expression, they went largely unaddressed. And as Niyas has already pointed out, i hope such guys exist who can understand such subtle signs.
Good job done!!!

eternalthinker said...

Liked ur post, Raphael - How u say it, how u arrange the thoughts - all that..
Although I think things will change a lot when u finally manage to meet a real love, I choose not to criticize this piece of work from u :)

The Wanderer said...

I love it! And if this is the outcome.. you can as well disappear again :P :P :P lol

Beautiful lines!

and given the inspiration, I'll do my own version of 'If you love me' :) :)

Azra Raphael said...

@ magic eye- thank you!

@ vee- thank you too!

@ truth- none re! and i guess, there's no such guy as the one i described here. and who'd fall for me anyway? =P

@ niyas- don't i wish so too!

@ J- waiting for the critique =)

@ Mohu- omg, i better rethink before i disappear next time!

@ rahul- =)for the first time u choose truce. i guess this poem IS speshul!

@ nishi- yowza- threats again. now i really, really gotta worry about disappearances and blogger's blocks. and oh, please, pretty please DO an "if u love me" remake. i'd love to see ur take on the topic.

Matangi Mawley said...

WOW! raphael... :D welcome back! I totally loved it!! :)

Bluebutterfly said...

Well to say that I missed you would be a lie because I myself haven't been here... But what-ta comeback baby!!!

I love love love it.... amazingly arranged..
and no they certainly are'nt many conditions...
its just perfect, specially the last part !!!

Bluebutterfly said...

I am not sure about the missed you part since I haven't been around myself either...
But that was some comeback baby !!
Awesome is the word, beautiful arrangement.
and these are certainly not too many conditions...
Its just perfect, specially the last paragraph !

Hamid said...

peace be upon you.May God Guide you,protect you and save you.

Raveena said...

Azra! Awesome! It read like a pretty little song and it rung oh-so-true!

The Wanderer said...

There are some lines you read somewhere and you think.. wow, I wish I had thought of that!

"I'll love you with a silent fire." is one of those! Luuurve it ;)

Jen..The Butterfly Effect said...

That was absolutely sweet! :)