Finally the day has come! Just when I thought it never would. Phew! Freeeeeeeeeee!!!
So the exam ordeal is over. And I still can't make out why they want us to take second language system in college..? I mean, half or more the things I'm studying in my second language thingy is pure trash.
Can't believe?
Try deciphering this doha by some dude of the 14th century. (sorry, there were absolutely NO dudes in the 14th century!) Anyways, check this mahaan's couplet.
It goes like this:
कहत, नटत, रीझत, खिजत ,मिलत ,खिलत, लाजियात
भरे भौन में करत हैं ,नैनन ही सब बात
Now you understand what I mean???
I'm not telling you what the f*** it means.
And there are these mad poems about a heart broken lover (why should we learn stuff that we don't believe in? Are there any broken hearts around anymo'?) ,
and a depressing poem about a sad woman who finds similarities with a rain cloud.[I can get the expression you're going thru, sigh],and many other poems to.
Oh yeah,and there's a poem about an iron smith. Huh?
What's he doing in the whole lot?
What are the whole lot of these poets doing in this test book and my qwestun paper?
What is this text book doing in my life??
What good changes are they going to bring in my life??????????
Nothing. And the only change these crappy second language text books have brought in my life is a sincerely cynical approach to our edu system and deepening the already deep-rooted belief that "yahaan kabhi kuch badalnewala nahi".
And just last year, one second lang txtbk was of an Arya king. But the worst part was that the whole story seemed to have found its way down to my book from Hitler's library. Shit about how grand and great and broad minded Aryans are and how nasty and niggerly black people are.
Some Indian story.
And this year's txtbk "Draupadi" had us all pitying Karna's fate. So what if he's illegitimate? That's not at all his fault!
Y'know all this love for Karna,Ravana and Duryodhan from my gang's part..
Vinaya chipped in,"it's all about generation gap. The earlier generation respected the Yudhishtir team. We love the rival team."
Blae! I don't care.
Let me see if you can decipher that doha!
Ha!
Apart from this hated post-exam discussion sort of thing I have put here, we had some fun with my camera at college. Then it was lemonades and orange juices..and mangoes!
Won't be seeing any of my darlings till June comes. Then I will be a bigg girl!! I will be in my final yearr!
Ouch.
That hurt.
I don't want to grow up and leave college.
But I realise that I don't want to flunk tests and stay back either.
Bye!
p.s-I will miss the language classes though. they were sooo bunkable classes! I had the best times when those hours were going on and we were outside enjoying the view and the *ahem, non-views. So that means lesser bunks next year. Ah me! :(
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Eight pointed by the Moon
So here I am, after a slothy week.To do a tag. Tagged by Nishi again!
So without making you read deviations from the topic, we shall begin.
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!
Eight things I'm passionate about:
1. Chocolates& Coffee- I'm usually a nice person. Chocolates bring out the mean me. If I get chocolate, I'm not sharing with anyone. Not with the cutest baby(ok, my niece maybe. I'm ready to sacrifice the best chocolate for her), not my darling friends, just NO ONE.
2. Good company. Friends. I like keeping myself surrounded by friends. If not in the physical sense, then in any other sense. Gah!
3. Music and books and poetry- I needn't say anything!
4.Sports. Just so that I get messy
5.Simplicity- the one mantra(among the many) that rules my life.
6.BLoGginG! PLus diary writing-How can I forget that? My newly found Zahir. (didn't catch that? read some Paulo Coelho)
7. Travelling. Ah the green meadows and vales are a'calling me... Not all like that. But I love travelling.
8.Graffiti, doodling, blowing bubbles, blah blah
Eight things I wanna do before I die:
1. Do a lot of charity work. I need to pay back, nah?
2.Pilgrimage. Sounds too saintly for a teen girl to say. But I really want to do that before I die. Mom did. I was scared she might come back all holier-than-thou. No. She just came back nicer and straighter.
3. Learn guitar, violin and the piano. (I think I can handle drums, practice from school and college benches)
4.Learn French and Spanish. ( I really want to flaunt my C'est la vie and voullez vous when I finally get a chance to go to Pondicherry or the Real France)
5. Travel. But globetrotting can wait. I want to travel India first. I want to know the India apart from the commercialised version you see on telly. Taj Mahal gets top priority though!
Then I wanna go everywhere else. and Disney Land.
6.Bungee Jump. Very much on my list. But I donno if I will have this same enthusiasm and courage when THE MOMENT comes.
7. Live in an apartment. Me and my girlfriends. Just us and our adventures. Anyway most of our parents are totally frustrated with us and mutter things like, "just run away from here, I don't know how anyone can handle you!" To which we religiously answer back, "I will run away with my gang." Everyone's ready in the virtual sense. God know where we shall be next year. Sab ke sab apne apne raaste jayenge. =(
8. Write a best seller. ok, at least have a famous blog.
Eight things I say often:
1. Blae! My personal expression of disgust. Mine own. No one can lay hold, or say they made it. ok, my friends use it too. plus many others in my college too now.
2. "Poor me!" , that's mostly said soon after doing something especially naughty. I put on a very innocent demeanour. ;)
3.What say?
4. Smoky!
5.What the ----? I actually leave a gap there. I leave that to listener's imagination. Fill it as you please.
6. Naff off !
7. Whatever
8. *beep* Ummm..And I cuss a lot nowadays. A bit too much than is ok. When I speak, I'm becoming more and more qualified for the beep sounds! I'm trying to come down on that.
Eight books I've read recently:
*interfering-" How much recent does recent mean? B'cos I haven't read anything more recent than last year!
1. Orhan Pamuk-Memories of a City. By the end of it, Turkey seemed all black and white to me 2.Milan Kundera- Unbearable Lightness of Being Nothing more cool than the title. I regret having taken that book. I really regret that. So...I don't even know what to call it!
3.Gabriel Garcia Marquez- Clandestine in Chile Now this is a book I will recommend to everyone who had ask me about his works. It's taken from real life where an exile comes back in disguise with much risk to himself to expose the realities of dictatorship in Chile. Awesome. Great book this one.
4. J.M Coetzee-Disgrace Booker winner. Worth a read. About the disgrace a man goes through. Beautiful. I could feel the character's conflicted emotions in my skin! Creepy!
5. Anita Desai- Journey to Ithaca I didn't like it. That's it. That's all.
6. Kiran Desai-Inheritance of Loss Whatever you do, please don't make the mistake of reading
this book. Seriously. You will come back with lots of hair in your hands (from pulling them in frustration as the story unravels). It is vaguely reminiscent of God of Small Things style. But nothing wonderful to expect here. So DON'T read this one. Oh crap. I should have known that advices always backfire. Someone says don't look, and you are certain to look. Mph!
7.Richard Bach- Jonathan Livingston Seagull and The Bridge Across Forever Worth a read and more. I loved both his works. Wanting to check his rest works as well.
8.Paulo Coelho- Alchemist and Zahir Wonderful. Bach and Coelho are cool at philo-stuff. Way too cool.
Plus many,many other books. But you asked only 8! I squeezed in 10, nah? Am I allowed to squeeze more?
Eight songs I listen to over and over again:
1.Kuch is Tarah-Atif Aslam I'm wiping away the tears all over again. Atif!!!!! Whatte soulful voice, man!
2.Leave Out All The Rest-L.P Ubercool song
3.My Happy Ending-Avril Lavigne I almost wished I had been cheated! God forbid!
4.Abhi Nahi Aana-Sona Warm and mopey melody. Luvved it
5.My Immortal-Evanescence Over and over again
5.You're beautiful-James Blunt too many memories attached
6.Several A.R Rahman compositions. I'd be like,forever at my desk if i were to put them down in here!
6.Rabba-Musafir
7.Tere mere sapne oldie song
7.Abhi na jao chodkar,ke dil abhi bhara nahi oldie song this one too
8. Tere bin nahi lagta dil mera-Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan thanks to "bend it like beckham" for introducing me to this track.
8.Eternal Flame-Bangles
I cheated so many times! I'll be thwacked by all who read this! =0
But right now I'm listening to Enrique's "Somebody's Me".
Eight things that attract me to my friends:
1.Truthfulness- even though it becomes pretty harsh,blunt and painful at times.
Then I wanna go everywhere else. and Disney Land.
6.Bungee Jump. Very much on my list. But I donno if I will have this same enthusiasm and courage when THE MOMENT comes.
7. Live in an apartment. Me and my girlfriends. Just us and our adventures. Anyway most of our parents are totally frustrated with us and mutter things like, "just run away from here, I don't know how anyone can handle you!" To which we religiously answer back, "I will run away with my gang." Everyone's ready in the virtual sense. God know where we shall be next year. Sab ke sab apne apne raaste jayenge. =(
8. Write a best seller. ok, at least have a famous blog.
Eight things I say often:
1. Blae! My personal expression of disgust. Mine own. No one can lay hold, or say they made it. ok, my friends use it too. plus many others in my college too now.
2. "Poor me!" , that's mostly said soon after doing something especially naughty. I put on a very innocent demeanour. ;)
3.What say?
4. Smoky!
5.What the ----? I actually leave a gap there. I leave that to listener's imagination. Fill it as you please.
6. Naff off !
7. Whatever
8. *beep* Ummm..And I cuss a lot nowadays. A bit too much than is ok. When I speak, I'm becoming more and more qualified for the beep sounds! I'm trying to come down on that.
Eight books I've read recently:
*interfering-" How much recent does recent mean? B'cos I haven't read anything more recent than last year!
1. Orhan Pamuk-Memories of a City. By the end of it, Turkey seemed all black and white to me 2.Milan Kundera- Unbearable Lightness of Being Nothing more cool than the title. I regret having taken that book. I really regret that. So...I don't even know what to call it!
3.Gabriel Garcia Marquez- Clandestine in Chile Now this is a book I will recommend to everyone who had ask me about his works. It's taken from real life where an exile comes back in disguise with much risk to himself to expose the realities of dictatorship in Chile. Awesome. Great book this one.
4. J.M Coetzee-Disgrace Booker winner. Worth a read. About the disgrace a man goes through. Beautiful. I could feel the character's conflicted emotions in my skin! Creepy!
5. Anita Desai- Journey to Ithaca I didn't like it. That's it. That's all.
6. Kiran Desai-Inheritance of Loss Whatever you do, please don't make the mistake of reading
this book. Seriously. You will come back with lots of hair in your hands (from pulling them in frustration as the story unravels). It is vaguely reminiscent of God of Small Things style. But nothing wonderful to expect here. So DON'T read this one. Oh crap. I should have known that advices always backfire. Someone says don't look, and you are certain to look. Mph!
7.Richard Bach- Jonathan Livingston Seagull and The Bridge Across Forever Worth a read and more. I loved both his works. Wanting to check his rest works as well.
8.Paulo Coelho- Alchemist and Zahir Wonderful. Bach and Coelho are cool at philo-stuff. Way too cool.
Plus many,many other books. But you asked only 8! I squeezed in 10, nah? Am I allowed to squeeze more?
Eight songs I listen to over and over again:
1.Kuch is Tarah-Atif Aslam I'm wiping away the tears all over again. Atif!!!!! Whatte soulful voice, man!
2.Leave Out All The Rest-L.P Ubercool song
3.My Happy Ending-Avril Lavigne I almost wished I had been cheated! God forbid!
4.Abhi Nahi Aana-Sona Warm and mopey melody. Luvved it
5.My Immortal-Evanescence Over and over again
5.You're beautiful-James Blunt too many memories attached
6.Several A.R Rahman compositions. I'd be like,forever at my desk if i were to put them down in here!
6.Rabba-Musafir
7.Tere mere sapne oldie song
7.Abhi na jao chodkar,ke dil abhi bhara nahi oldie song this one too
8. Tere bin nahi lagta dil mera-Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan thanks to "bend it like beckham" for introducing me to this track.
8.Eternal Flame-Bangles
I cheated so many times! I'll be thwacked by all who read this! =0
But right now I'm listening to Enrique's "Somebody's Me".
Eight things that attract me to my friends:
1.Truthfulness- even though it becomes pretty harsh,blunt and painful at times.
2.You're weird? Then you're definitely one of my friends!
3.Be able to speak my thoughts, HAVE my thoughts.
4.Ability to beat the melancholy and depresion out of me
5. Not bothered about trivial stuff like "what will others say?"
6.Ready to execute any hare brained plan.
7. Must fight once in a while at the least.
8.Must understand me. But it's ok if you can't. Only one has achieved that feat. Now I'm used to not being understood. It's become part of my life. ie-not being understood.
Eight persons I'm tagging:
I really don't have too many blogger friends. So this list might be shortened.
1.Dusk- darling,it's high time you updated.
2.Mohua
3. Jean-the bean who's blog is dying. But she insisits it can come back to life whenever she wants it to!
4. Maggie
5. J-if he hasn't already done it.
6. Champak-if he has a blog. If not, well-begin one!
7. And K.S
8. And anyone who's intersted in doing the tag.
I can't believe that I made this simple tag seem Herculean. Sheesh!
P.S- How does the picture look? Shot by me! ME-ME-ME!!!
Maybe we could have an eight on celeb crushes too. I could have done it.
Bas, this is more than enuff!
3.Be able to speak my thoughts, HAVE my thoughts.
4.Ability to beat the melancholy and depresion out of me
5. Not bothered about trivial stuff like "what will others say?"
6.Ready to execute any hare brained plan.
7. Must fight once in a while at the least.
8.Must understand me. But it's ok if you can't. Only one has achieved that feat. Now I'm used to not being understood. It's become part of my life. ie-not being understood.
Eight persons I'm tagging:
I really don't have too many blogger friends. So this list might be shortened.
1.Dusk- darling,it's high time you updated.
2.Mohua
3. Jean-the bean who's blog is dying. But she insisits it can come back to life whenever she wants it to!
4. Maggie
5. J-if he hasn't already done it.
6. Champak-if he has a blog. If not, well-begin one!
7. And K.S
8. And anyone who's intersted in doing the tag.
I can't believe that I made this simple tag seem Herculean. Sheesh!
P.S- How does the picture look? Shot by me! ME-ME-ME!!!
Maybe we could have an eight on celeb crushes too. I could have done it.
Bas, this is more than enuff!
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
One whole year
One whole year.
One big hole where you used to be.
One whole year of searching for you in vain in...
places you sat,
things you held,
songs you liked,
memories of trivial fights,your shoulder shrugging, laughters and ever-smiling face,
pages of my diary where you were mentioned,
your photos in family events.
One whole year of missing a cousin whose wonderfulness striked me
;fortunately;
earlier than departure time.
Of missing a brother.
One whole year
of sudden remembrances and crying long and hard alone in my room
in realisation of what a great loss it is.
One whole year
in which you figured first in my prayers.
One whole year since I changed.
And one whole year-
of knowing how much important expressing love and caring your loved ones.
of not taking time and life and every precious moment gifted for granted.
of realising never to expect the next moment to happen.
One whole year of missing a wonderful person.
My cousin.
My brother.
You are still very much with us.
And I can't believe my sadness has slowly turned into painful poetry.
Monday, May 5, 2008
Hindi ordeal Part I over. Bike rides. Yeah!!!!!
Gee, I've been away for a while,thanks to my great exams. Today's exam could have spelt disaster, but I was lucky. We had a hartal around this place (as always), my exam wasn't about to be postponed, and I live far way from my college. Great. Just so great. I move to my dad's place,which is much more near to my college, cousin drops me and picks me up from my exam... on his bike! Yeah!! After all these months of whining, (mebbe even years), that I never get a bike ride, today is THE DAY! And he's being nice enough to speed up and it's an almost deserted road. Wondehful!
As for the exam? Um.. can we talk about something else?
Not that it was that bad, but I really really very very much hate post-exam discussions. To h*** with discussions that don't help me at all, on the sad side actually make me feel worser than i felt after handing over the paper. After the exam, everyon was bitching about the examiner who snatched a.wayyy our papers when we could still spot mistakes which we could undo.
I snap pictures on the phone. KS has set the shutter sound to something pretty weird. Instead of that usual snap, we all hear a kind of gurgle. Ma-a-a-a-d!
Lemme talk about the bike ride! Wow---- I had actually forgotten the thrill of bike rides. Wind rushing at you, flying against the wind, that furious speed, that open feeling. You don't get that feeling in cars. ok, I exclude hummers and convertibles. Forget it, just let me be! lurved te ride yaar. Guess I need to get one soon.
A lot of good music.
Can't believe I'm yet to check my main! Tomorrow's my main paper. Gak!
I loved the A.R Rahman's new album, Aamir Khan's debutant nephew's movie "Jaane tu ya jaane na". Plus "Tashan" by my next favourite composers-yup! Vishal-Shekhar! Plus Jal's song featuring Amrita Rao. Very hep.
Priyadarshan on the roll again. Malayalam movie "Ishtam" ,where son wants to get his dad married..is --um,I forget the name of the Hindi-yet-to-be-released. But you will understand once you see the trailer. The malayalam version was very feel-good.
Doncha think I'm overdoing this post?
Doncha think I should go and check my notes?
I think so too.
---------Oh I almost forgot to tell you of the Friends episode I watched today. Me and Aisha. She had already watched this episode. Can't believe Im missed it! This is just so damn funny!
Charlie gets back with her ex-boyfriend,ditching Ross. Phobe gives a very reluctant Monica Gladys, which is actually an ugly doll poking face out of a painting. Magnificent! And Joey gets Chandler to wear blue lipstick and say," I'm a pretty girl". I had tear in my eyes with laughing. Wonderful, this whole day was so nice.
I'll leave you to find that episode or whatever you might wanna do (apart from waiting for my next update. Tee-hee! [I'm sounding like a humungous big head, which I'm NOT,positively NOT.]
Nishi, I'm doing your tag first thing day after tomorrow.
-Till then, wish me luck for my tomorrow's exam.
ps-watched "Teen Diva" on mtv. This one too, with Aisha. Watching tv with friends or cousins is million times better than watching tv alone. To which undoubtedly,all people will agree.
As for the exam? Um.. can we talk about something else?
Not that it was that bad, but I really really very very much hate post-exam discussions. To h*** with discussions that don't help me at all, on the sad side actually make me feel worser than i felt after handing over the paper. After the exam, everyon was bitching about the examiner who snatched a.wayyy our papers when we could still spot mistakes which we could undo.
I snap pictures on the phone. KS has set the shutter sound to something pretty weird. Instead of that usual snap, we all hear a kind of gurgle. Ma-a-a-a-d!
Lemme talk about the bike ride! Wow---- I had actually forgotten the thrill of bike rides. Wind rushing at you, flying against the wind, that furious speed, that open feeling. You don't get that feeling in cars. ok, I exclude hummers and convertibles. Forget it, just let me be! lurved te ride yaar. Guess I need to get one soon.
A lot of good music.
Can't believe I'm yet to check my main! Tomorrow's my main paper. Gak!
I loved the A.R Rahman's new album, Aamir Khan's debutant nephew's movie "Jaane tu ya jaane na". Plus "Tashan" by my next favourite composers-yup! Vishal-Shekhar! Plus Jal's song featuring Amrita Rao. Very hep.
Priyadarshan on the roll again. Malayalam movie "Ishtam" ,where son wants to get his dad married..is --um,I forget the name of the Hindi-yet-to-be-released. But you will understand once you see the trailer. The malayalam version was very feel-good.
Doncha think I'm overdoing this post?
Doncha think I should go and check my notes?
I think so too.
---------Oh I almost forgot to tell you of the Friends episode I watched today. Me and Aisha. She had already watched this episode. Can't believe Im missed it! This is just so damn funny!
Charlie gets back with her ex-boyfriend,ditching Ross. Phobe gives a very reluctant Monica Gladys, which is actually an ugly doll poking face out of a painting. Magnificent! And Joey gets Chandler to wear blue lipstick and say," I'm a pretty girl". I had tear in my eyes with laughing. Wonderful, this whole day was so nice.
I'll leave you to find that episode or whatever you might wanna do (apart from waiting for my next update. Tee-hee! [I'm sounding like a humungous big head, which I'm NOT,positively NOT.]
Nishi, I'm doing your tag first thing day after tomorrow.
-Till then, wish me luck for my tomorrow's exam.
ps-watched "Teen Diva" on mtv. This one too, with Aisha. Watching tv with friends or cousins is million times better than watching tv alone. To which undoubtedly,all people will agree.
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